life lately

Less of me.

I remember posting about organization and gardening. It feels like a whole lifetime ago. Before I get all angsty here, I’ll share a few changes from this past year:

Last March/April we started training for foster care through a wonderful Christian agency. We had foster care and adoption on our hearts since we were first married. Basically youths. Little babies, dreaming a big dream.

The Monday after our training ended, (our last class was CPR/First Aid on a Saturday) we were thrown into a new world. When I checked on E. he has having a seizure in his bed. It’s hard to think about what happened during the moments that followed. It’s been nearly a year, and with time the realness fades a bit. In a heartbeat… the sound of sirens, hearing songs or bible verses we clung to during that time… the memories come flooding back, nearly choking me. I know it’s partially PTSD from the trauma, but it’s also a way of healing. It’s real, and it’s hard. It’s therapeutic to share E.’s story these days. I’m following my heart in how much to share, and when to share. I hope to write more posts about all that happened to E.

In August, we resumed our foster care/adoption home study process. and fast forward 3 months we were certified for both and had our first placement. It’s been a wonderful experience so far. I hope to share more about this ever-changing journey of foster care. We’ve been learning so much about many aspects of foster care and adoption. There are many hard decisions to make, and often only minutes to an hour to make these life altering decisions. It’s a calling for me. I know I wouldn’t be able to do any of this on my own strength. God gives us the strength we need, through the Word, Prayer, Songs, and other people.

Both O. and E. started school last fall. O. is in Kindergarten, and loving it. She’s studious and hilarious at the same time. She has a refreshing perspective. E. started preschool in October. He’s receiving speech therapy there, as well as learning how to interact with other children. He loves his two days a week there. It’s hard for me to let go, to let them mature and become independent at their own pace. Sometimes it’s a bit delayed, and other times Mama bear holds on too tightly. This parenting thing is not for the faint of heart. I’m so thankful God pours his love and mercy into our lives, filling in gaps and leading us.

I’m hoping to share more this year as I have time, or let’s be honest…sleepless nights. 🙂

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What I’m reading: finally, but it’s taking me a looong time

What I’m listening to: Hillsong

What I’m watching: Part 2 of this heartbreak

Happy weekend, friends.

Life Lately.

IMG_6110This is a different Life Lately post. I’ve been thinking about posting for a while, and keep grasping for words and ways to start. Lately I’ve been learning the meaning of trust and surrender, and knowing where the source of my strength is.

          Psalm 121
 I lift up my eyes to the hills.
 From where does my help come?
 My help comes from the Lord,
 who made heaven and earth.

 He will not let your foot be moved;
 he who keeps you will not slumber.
 Behold, he who keeps Israel
 will neither slumber nor sleep.

 The Lord is your keeper;
 the Lord is your shade on your right hand.
 The sun shall not strike you by day,
 nor the moon by night.

 The Lord will keep you from all evil;
 he will keep your life.
 The Lord will keep
 your going out and your coming in
 from this time forth and forevermore.

I find it hard to even think about everything that happened, much less post about it. I shared some on Instagram and Facebook. I guess it’s hard to share the feelings/emotions we’ve gone through without feeling vulnerable. I keep thinking, maybe with time I’ll be able to share more. My posts might be a little disjointed; be assured, though, I still love organizing (it really is a wonderful coping mechanism).

Hold your family close today.

Life Lately.

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What I’m reading: Shiloh Autumn, by Brock and Bodie Thone

What I’m listening to: I Get To Be The One, by JJ Heller

What I’m watching: The Drop Box

Blog recommendation: Skies of Parchment

Today we’re enjoying a snow day. Being at home with family is my favorite.
So far today we have:
• played piano (on our new/old baby grand!)
• ate our first dutch baby (YUM!)
• had Sunday School (hello Daniel and being committed to praying)
• sang too many songs to count
• painted with watercolors while listening to relaxing music
Still left to do:
• take naps
• finish blogging
• play in the snow

We’re enjoying our day, and hope you do too!

Life lately.

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What I’m reading: Grace for the Good Girl by Emily P. Freeman

What I’m listening to: Lord, I Need You by Matt Maher

What I’m watching: Mr. Kid President because he’s the best.

What I’m thinking (well, a tiny portion): Today is the atticroseblog’s first anniversary (or blogiversary). It’s hard for me to comprehend really. I knew it was sometime this week, but didn’t realize until I started typing this post. :: How can we keep Christmas simple this year? (read: not all about us) Are we really enjoying everything we’re doing? Am I taking time to slow down and read to my children, or would I rather bake cookies to give away to friends? Which is more important? (should I blog about my thoughts on this?) 🙂 :: We spent some time at thereliefbus.org in November. Some seriously life-changing stuff.

Blog recommendation: A Holy Experience

Happy weekending, friends!